Friday, July 31, 2009

I guess now is as good a time as any.....

The past few months have been very trying, but also very blessed for me. I have been working really hard to improve myself, but to also "find" myself (whatever that means :) ) As always, here is my long introduction to the point of this blog......
March 18th, 2009 - I had been home from Alaska almost a month; I was currently living with Alaina while Josh was in basic training; I had just been offered my job at the vet clinic the day before; I still didnt know what I was doing for future goals; but life in general was looking up, besides the point that we were dropping little brother Jar Jar off at the MTC that day. Not that I wasnt happy for him and knew that it was the right thing, but I knew I would miss my little brother and his funny randomness. Just seeing Jaron's overall demeanor was an experience in itself. The boy who was slow as molasses any time you asked him to do anything, was just short of running to the reception room! I was and am so proud of him. But to get to the point, slowly of course, they showed a video that was made in the 80's (I am assuming because the hair and fashion were horrendous) but it was about missions and being called to serve. At the end of the video the hymn, "Called to Serve" is sung by missionaries in all different languages.....at this point, I was so overwhelmed by the spirit that I was almost, almost, in hysterics.....you know, the crying where you cant catch your breath, cant talk, sometimes you slobber and spit a little, not very attractive, but like we are told, "The spirit manifests itself differently to everyone." Mine just happens to be an experience of drowning in my own tears. Aaaanyway, I am sure everyone attributed my hysterics to the fact that this was the last time I was going to say good bye to Jar Jar for the next 2 years, but in reality, this was the moment I knew, without any bias or doubt, or worries or fears that in my near future I would be serving a mission!

So, there you have it. I am planning to serve a mission! I know that the next few months are going to be trying and hard, but also very valuable as I learn and prepare. My estimated time of leaving is 6-8 months because I need to get out of debt....so if ya'll need any extra work done just let me know! :) But seriously, I know that serving a mission is the right thing for me to do at this point in my life. I am going to try as hard as I can to leave sooner because I know that opposition is going to try and pull me down now that I have made this commitment, but I know that the Lord will help me. The Church is true, and I cant wait to share this wonderful news with people! So the New Adventures of Old Hannah will once again continue as I serve the Lord in who knows where, but I hope it is some place crazy, because where else would I fit in?! :) I love you all!